Tuesday, 29 May 2012

It's been a while...

So I haven't posted in a while, the last time was over a month ago. I'm just going to say my piece then get out of your hair.

This was kind of unexpected stop. I'd been trying to stick to my reading so that I could post things, but then exams started bearing down on me and they basically dominated my time in terms of revision and extra lessons and then just moments of sheer overload where I had to just sit there and try yo quell the storm in my mind. I couldn't do anything in those moments and it was exhausting to have them.

And then there was the whole psychological side of it. I try to keep actual personal blogging to a minimum here, but it slipped in occasionally. Basically I had a really bad few weeks in February which I dropped off the radar for a while. I sort of moved past that for a while, but then it hit me again around mid-March, I think. I still kept up the blogging but it was just so forced. I felt in some ways I had to and in other ways that by doing it I would be able to move past my issue and just get back to being normal, happy, readersome me. It didn't actually happen, but I forced myself through most of George R. R. Martin's books before I hit a immovable wall- and, frankly, I was too exhausted to bull my way through it. I'm not completely past it, but at least it quiet for the moment. To be honest with y'all, I imagine that in the next few weeks it will resurface and I might go dark again. I didn't let myself get distracted by my brooding or depressive outlook since I had exams but since they're more or less out of the way, I don't know how long I can keep this up.

So that's it. That's why I was gone. And this isn't an "I'M BACK!!!" it's more of a "Hey, I was just thinking about you" that may lead to "I'm still thinking about you" in the acceptable total normal way.

I've read two books in the past few weeks whose reviews I'll post in the next week or so and, unless I genuinely feel interested, I'm going to stop myself making myself do memes. I love them, I do, but I need to just need to do what I want when I want until I get out my funk. And I've got make some decisions about University and Degrees and all sorts which is going to take forever to decide.

The only final thing is that I wonder if anyone would like to do an actual bloggy blog? Not a review one, just one where you log on and talk for however long about whatever happens to be on your mind. Then you incline your head and get on with your day. I'm not making this too committal, I'm just thinking I'd like to do one but in know way could I bear the burden of a second blog. I think I'd just blink out of existence.

Thanks for your time!


  1. I don't do memes anymore either. When I first started blogging I did and now I do them when I feel like I really want to do it. I also don't feel I have to blog every week. I just do it after I read a book... which sometimes is every two weeks!! Hope life treats ya good and summer vacation is fun!!

    Angela's Anxious Life

    1. Thanks. That's all great advice and the kind of thing I want to have in mind now. Rather than forcing myself to do these things, I should just try and have fun with. Summer vacation in England isn't as long as America- we don't finish until mid-July! I like memes, but they just seem to take much too long for what they are.

  2. You do whatever you need to Alex! Blog when you want and however you want. NO RULES!

    Did you know that my blog was originally meant to be a "bloggy blog". I was just going to talk about life. the movies I saw, the books I read, rant when I felt like it. I don't even know how it ended up a book review blog lol
    I'm reassessing the whole thing myself.